Six Months of Joy

Tomorrow, my precious baby girl will offically be 6 MONTHS OLD! Honestly, it seems impossible that half a year could have slipped right by! As most mommy's do, I have many mixed emotions facing the reality that my little princess is no longer a newborn!

It doesn't seem like long ago I was hoping and praying to see those two pink lines EVERY month!!!! Many of you would answer your phone during that time of my life, with a "sorry" and a comforting ear as I cried about the longing I felt to be a mommy! That year was the most trying time in my life! The one thing I was so desperate for was out of my reach and there was nothing I could do to change it! God was in control of it all, and after many nights of crying out in prayer, I think I finally truly grasped the reality of His love for me! He knew what was best for my life, even though I doubted Him each month. Looking back now, I know His plan was WAY better than the one I had laid out for myself. We serve an awesome God!!

On June 13th, 2008, those two pink lines FINALLY appeared!! I was in such great shock and disbelief that I went to Albertsons, bought two digital tests, went straight to the bathroom and prayed as I waited for those two minutes to pass! I opened my eyes and saw the word "PREGNANT ". I vividly remember the feeling of my heart sinking in my stomach. I started to cry!! I called Jonathan to tell him that our dream had become reality! At that moment, my entire life changed for the best! I was going to be a MOMMY!

Now, here I am, over one year later and my baby is 6 months old! It feels like yesterday we brought that 5 lb.10 oz. beautiful bundle of joy home. To be completely honest, I wished the first 6-8 weeks of her life away! I was so tired, hurt so bad, and was so overwhelmed! I just wanted her acid reflux to go away and wanted her to sleep so badly! I would do anything to have one day back. Just to remind myself how tiny and innocent she was! They change so quickly, its really hard to phathom!

The last six months have just been incredible! Her personality is beginning to shine more and more everyday! 90% of the time she is the most happy and content baby girl (just like her daddy). However, she can be very strong willed, more like her mommy! She knows what she wants and will put up a pretty good fight until she gets it! At times, this trait brings mommy and daddy a lot of frusturation, but I actually love this about her! She has the most beautiful smile and the sweetest laugh I have ever heard. The smallest things in life bring her so much joy... its very refreshing! She is beginning to look just like her daddy! (and a little like her Aunt Ashley too!) Her blue eyes and long dark eyelashes are absolutely gorgeous!!! I have a feeling she will be a heart breaker if her daddy ever lets her date! ;) She is more than I could have ever dreamed of!!

So, Happy 6-Month Birthday Alexa Jayne! I look forward to the many joys you will continue to bring to my life! I love you so much and I am so proud to be your mommy!